I'm torn between the new Nokia N97 mini and new Sony Ericsson Aino phone!!



8.1 MP camera, 3264x2448 pixels, autofocus, LED flash, Touch focus, geo-tagging, face detection, image stabilizer, smart contrast, red-eye reduction, videocalling, Accelerometer sensor for auto-rotate, Remote play for Playstation 3, MP3/AAC/MP4 player, Google Maps, Picture editor/blogging, YouTube & Facebook applications, Organizer, Voice memo, SensMe



5.0 MP camera, Symbian OS v9.4, Series 60 rel. 5, ARM 11 434 MHz processor, Proximity sensor for auto turn-off, Accelerometer sensor for auto-rotate, Full QWERTY keyboard, Handwriting recognition, Digital compass, MP3/WMA/WAV/eAAC+ music player, WMV/RealVideo/MP4 video player, TV-out, Voice command/dial, Document viewer (Word, Excel, PowerPoint, PDF), Video and photo editor, Flash Lite 3
I'll go for Aino because it has a 8.1 MP camera! If it's Nokia N97 maybe i won't bother to get it.. but it's Nokia N97 mini.. the upgraded version which just came out recently!! Double the speed, smaller the size and extremely chio!!

And Nokia N97 mini has a full QWERTY keyboard and seriously, the revised version will definitely be near to perfection already if not they won't anyhow release it! But Aino is really super chio as well! Arghhhh.. but Aino reviews are not as good as compared to Nokia N97 mini!!

How?!?! :(

This should be my longest "hiatus" since don't know how many million years ago as i'll usually update once every few days no matter how busy i am. But no, i've not been very busy lately. The fact is that i couldn't find any strength or energy to blog, or does that even make sense?

I guess i've officially reached this low point in life where nothing seems to work out anymore. It is just that "usual feeling" that i normally couldn't describe with words. It's a feeling where you just feel sad and depressed because so many things are bothering you and you don't really know which is the most serious problem that is the root of all the problems that you wish you could tackle first so that all the other problems can all eventually be solved. Sounds chim? Yea, something like that.

To add on to the misery in my life and of this world, i have to come across news like this and this for the past few days. What i don't understand, or rather.. what i'm disturbed about is that, the mayor in the first article killed so many lives and could be face with "life imprisonment" while the guy who killed the singapore boy will be faced with the death penalty if proven guilty. I mean, it's not a case about who killed more people. But rather, don't they all deserved to be punished and faced with the death penalty? And why, in the first place, did all these tragedies have to happen? I can never imagine myself wanting to inflict any form of physical injuries to even the people i hate most in this world. What is it like, to be holding a knife/gun and killing someone?

I can never or will never want to imagine/go through that. Yes, some of you may be skeptical and say you may never know if you'll be a murderer later on in life. But the fact is that, unless i'm fighting for my life and that someone wants to murder me, of course i'll fight back to stay alive! What i'm thinking here is rather.. are murderers breed since young? For example, i find games like L4D and counter-strike extremely lame and pointless, while there are people in this world who will adore them to their deathbeds. Or people who loves horror and extreme gore movies and are wildly excited when people are being killed in Final Destination or Saw series. I'm sorry, i'm just not a fan.

I'm not saying here that people who likes gore games/movies will turn out to be murderer definitely. I also know that in fact, different people have different likings and preferences and that i'm perfectly fine with people liking these genre of stuff. I just don't understand whether is it that the culture of this world has evolved/transformed to such an extent that people no longer treat death seriously and think that life is "just a game". No, i beg to differ from that mindset or whatsoever. Life is definitely not a game and i don't know why i see so many people around me wasting their life away.

And i probably reached the point i want to make, after beating about the bush (bullshit i say) for the past fifteen minutes. The fact that i'm feeling down is probably because i feel that i'm seriously wasting my life away. The fact that the activities of my life now revolves around worrying whether i've done enough exercises today, family issues, my diet, being caught up in office politics, watching reality tv programmes, farming in Farmville, deciding on where to club this weekend and many other countless superficial activities, just pains me. When was the last time i ever lived so long, staying untrue to myself for as long as i continue to remain to be delusional. I really couldn't remember, or rather.. i don't think my life has ever gone this wrong before.

It is weird, because i identify with my problems, but i refuse to do anything about it. Maybe i did attempt to try a little to improve the situation. But i've definitely not done enough, or am not trying hard enough to make an impact or a significant change to this lifestyle that i'm currently leading. Or is it because i've resigned to fate already? I once ever tried so hard, to attempt to change this lifestyle that i'm currently leading. Once or twice, i succeeded in making an improvement or a change. But looking at things now, it is obvious that nothing has changed and situations have definitely worsened and gone downhill ever since i made that decision to give up. It definitely wasn't a wise decision, but i just couldn't stand living a life that i know that is untrue to myself. Thus i decided to go on an adventure to seek for my true self-being and sadly to say, i've failed miserably in this mission of a lifetime.

Perhaps, just like i thought maybe a person was destined and born to be a murderer. Maybe, i was destined and born to be a person who continuously struggles with life. But isn't it obvious that i'm trying to find reasons here to cover up for my actions. No one was made/created/born to be a murderer.. and i'm definitely not born to be a problematic individual either. So why is it that i'm still behaving in this manner and living my life in such a way which i feel extremely discontented about?

Thus, i've reached a dead end. The dead end is that i couldn't find the root of the problem that is affecting me and attacking me from all directions. I continue to be attacked day after days, week after weeks and just like a boulder and after going through so much wear and tear, is bound to break one day. Am i just waiting for that breaking point to come? Do i just want to continue to sit around and wait for that moment to arrive? What do i really need to do, or rather.. what can be done to prevent all these from happening?

The answers are open-ended and there are just so many answers and unknowns to everything. I hate unknows. I hate uncertainties. I hate almost everything in life that i couldn't control right now. I hate my influx of emotions which can affect me so much on a daily basis. I hate hiding my feelings when what i really want to do is to scold "KNNBCCB" right in your face. I hate trying to be cheery and all smiley when i know deep down i'm not happy. I hate being taken advantage of all the time and not speaking up about it. I hate being placed and forced into a situation which i couldn't get out of. I hate being the secret keeper of so many dark secrets all the time. I hate my character and personality in life. I hate it that people i love are destroying their life away and i can't do anything to help. I hate everything that i can't do but i really want to do.

I am suddenly such an aggressive hater of life. Where did the "life loving" individual went to? Where did the boy who used to believe that life "is a beautiful thing and amazing experience" went to? Where did all the faith and trust went to? Where did all the love and care disappeared to? There are just so many questions which my mind just could no longer contain right now. Zhenyang, i apologize for not reciprocating the trust. Celest, i wish i could have a pensieve too.

This is just getting no where.

Met up with yangyang and hannie to watch 2012 on last saturday night. I think it was my first ever "late" night movie. Well, the movie started at 11.15pm, which wasn't even close to midnight.. but i didn't know that the friggin movie was 2 hrs 38 mins long and it ended at 2am. WTF? Not to mention that GV always like to throw their audiences with at least 20 to 30 minutes long of commercials to earn a larger profit, totally cheapskate.


I think the general consensus for the movie is that the graphics and effects are very BOOMZ but the storyline is very SHINGZ. Omg, i bet you all just finally realized why Ris Low is such a genius! She invented 2 words which can literally be used to explain/describe anything on earth!! But anyway, i'll rather just die if i have to go through so much to stay alive. T_T

Don't worry, if we're all really going to die in 2012.. I promise to:

1) Stop calling zhenyang a bitch and other mean terms (:
2) Stop calling yanzhi a bitch and other mean terms :D
3) Stop calling hanwei a shorty and other mean terms
4) Start laughing at felicia's jokes even if it's not very funny
5) Stop joining zhenyang in suanning Celest and JH
6) Make sure priscilla gets to marry Michael Phelps
7) Play maple with yixuan 24/7

and the list continues.. BUT, since the world isn't going to end in 2012, i doubt you'll see these promises from happening. Hehehe.

Anyway, I went to TTSH today to collect my medication and many thoughts went through my head. In fact, couldn't really sleep well last night and was thinking through about many things. Sometimes i really wish i can just forgive and forget, but the fact that so many chances were given but the same situation remains.. really breaks my heart.

I've been thinking about so many things that sometimes i don't even realise what i'm doing anymore. Twice my bus came today and it is not until when the bus is leaving did i sort of "wake up" and catch my bus in time. I need to stop worrying about everything and focus on how to get on with life and put my life back in place one step at a time..

Thoughts about how unfair the world is kept flashing through my head. I don't understand why some incompetent doctors can earn a 5 digit salary a month just by prescribing medicine to their patients and saying a few words of consolations and pretending to be very concerned when on the other hand, you have cleaners/workers who have to work so hard and straining all their energy to just earn a living and hardly get a thousand dollars a month.

I also don't understand why people living in the developed nations are complaining about everything under the sun when people in the developing nations can't even have enough food/water to survive till old age. I want to know as well if everyone is born/created with a heart of gold but it is actually due to the circumstances that different people have to go through in life that separates the good from the evil.

There are so many things that i feel unjust about and i have this rebellious feeling to just want to keep finding out the truth or at least, until i understand why are all these things happening to the world i'm living in. Why are some people blessed with the pink of health, while some are born with defects?????

And i also don't understand that, why of all people.. do i have to be the one eating tablets after tablets of medication everyday in order to stay healthy? I asked my specialist a very cute question today, "Will i get any side effects from eating these medication on a long term basis"? Her reply? She smiled and told me to get well first.

Like i don't know that?? *rolleyes* What i want is an answer. An answer, an explaination to why my body works this way. Give me 10k a month and i can also takeover your job as a doctor please. You're hardly of any help and i doubt you even realized it yourself.

But deep within my heart i actually know the answer which i want exactly. It is only when i stop comparing myself with others, then will i start to enjoy and understand the true meaning of life. Maybe i just want to rant about all the unhappiness and pain that i'm going through, maybe i just want to be delusional and not face the truth. But i believe it's time to move on.

It's about time to move on as well. Feeling very drowsy from the medication.. (probably the reason why this post is very disorganized as well) Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

Your mercy saved me, mercy made me whole
Your mercy found me, called me as your own

Yanyan: Meet in 5 mins. What if you're late?
Me: If i'm late.. YOU WAIT. HAHAHAHAHA

Yanyan: I must wait for my brother to come back, he is a bitch.
Me: HE INHERITED YOUR GENES!

:D

I'm now doing my duty and am awfully bored. Hence i decided to tell you all a very short and sweet story.

The story goes like this..

Once upon a time, watermelon applied for a job and successfully got the job. He worked happily with other fruits such as strawberry, papaya, honeydew and many more. However, there was one fruit which didn't get along as well with the others. Banana was a very weird fruit. He doesn't know what he wants and frequently loves to go missing and don't report to work without permission. The other fruits knew about it but didn't want to comment much to the Durain, who was the fruits-in-charge. Until one day, the Durain found out and used his ultimate spikes on him. And none of banana was ever found again except for the banana skin.

Moral of story: Even fruits can never runaway scot-free from their evil deeds.

Since i have some more time, i shall tell you all another story.

Shrek, whom all of you know as the big green and ugly monster.. is actually a very big green and extremely ugly monster. No lah, what i meant was he actually loves to play pranks and jokes on others. Did i mention he loves to be in control and poke his nose into everything as well? However, Shrek doesn't know what is good for him and pushed his boundaries and limits with The Princess, who happened to hold much more power and authority than him. War waged between Shrek Land and Princess Island.. but i don't know who will be the winner yet. But what i do know is that Shrek Land only has Aunty Lucy and Bolly Rolly to help him, while Princess Island has Hulk, Fantastic Four, Superman and many other Superheroes to assist her in this Battle of the Century. I'm placing my bets on Princess Island, what about you?

Moral of story: Know your limits.

Do i have time for more stories?? Nope, maybe next time. (:

Thanks to john and yanyan, my mind is now full of all the 慧慈 bullshit. (Psst, i'll spare you all the horror by not uploading her picture) I know she's ridiculously funny and everything. But she's also very disturbing as well. I wonder if i'll get nightmares tonight.

Had dinner @ Billy Bombers and loved the Strawberry Milkshare there. It's 逊毙了! Then we watched My Sister's Keeper where i spent the next 109 minutes dreading the fact that i actually forgot to bring tissue for once because i seriously needed it. I think my eyes are still sore from all the crying just now man. I just have this soft spot for touching and meaningful movies like this and i think it has alot to do with different life experiences as compared to other people bah. T_T

Disclaimer: I am in no way being a racist here, i still love the indian community in my country.

BUT, that's another thing for Banglahs. Yes, Banglahs spelt with a big 'B'. I am terribly disturbed whenever i'm within the presence of a group of Banglahs or even a Banglah, because each experience is always unforgettable and unpleasant. And i'm not trying generalizing here, because it's the truth.

My daily trips to work and back home are always damn exciting irritating. My fastest way to get to Sembawang Camp is by Bus 169 and i can frankly tell you.. i hate my daily bus journeys on 169. Why? Firstly, the bus comes at the most irregular time intervals you can ever find on the surface of the earth for any bus schedules. I can wait 30 minutes for a bus, only to have 4 same buses trailing behind one another on the same lane and road. And i thought my experience with 811 was horrendous and disastrous already. Yes i thought, until i experienced 169 on my own. T_T

Secondly, since the wait for the bus is so long, the bus is forever packed whenever it reaches my bus-stop. Okay, perfectly fine with that. BUT WHY? TELL ME WHY? WHY DOES 169 NEED TO FOLLOW THE ROUTE OF THE INDUSTRIAL AREA IN SEMBAWANG, WHERE MOST OF THE BANGLAHS WORK? Do you know how frustrating it is to be on the same bus with many Banglahs? If you think i'm trying to be a racist here.. NO I'M NOT!! I'm just stating a cold hard truth here, that Banglahs are very uncivilise!!! Have you boarded the same MRT or buses with Banglahs before?? They chiong for the MRT/buses like they're not going to get on it like that. (Okay true, because i don't chiong and i don't get on the bus most of the time) BUT NO, THAT'S NOT MY POINT. My point is... DAMN YOU BANGLAHS!! WE'RE NOT IN FUCKING INDIA OR SRI LANKA!!!

DEAR BANGLAHS,

Please do read my kind words of advice:

#1 You don't get a prize for getting onto the bus FIRST.

#2 You won't DIE even if you don't get onto the bus.

#3 Stop SQUEEZING your way to the back of the bus because if there's still space, people would have moved in already.

#4 I will SLAP anyone of you who dares to squeeze/push a lady. And this applies to those old pehpehs as well who does this ever so frequently.

#5 And the most ridiculous one of all, WHY ARE YOU FOREVER TRYING TO LOOK FOR A SEAT ON A CROWDED BUS? ARE YOU STUPID OR WHAT? IT'S A CROWDED BUS. PEOPLE WHO CAN FIND A SEAT WOULD HAVE SAT DOWN IMMEDIATELY TO PREVENT THEMSELVES FROM BEING SQUEEZED ON THE BUS BY BANGLAHS LIKE YOU!!!!!!!!

MY RANTING IS NOT OVER YET. RAWRRRRR.
The audacity of Banglahs you see! I experienced more queer acts/ways by them on 169 today which triggered my emotions to dedicate this post to them. How dare you, anonymous Banglah #1 on my bus today! How dare you steal my hand support when i'm holding on to it. THE LOOP IS SO FUCKING SMALL AND YOU EXPECT THE LOOP TO BE FUCKED BY 2 HANDS IS IT? And you made me so embarrassed when everyone stared at you in shocked when you stole my hand support!! I had to mouth nevermind to everyone who looked at our direction and fake a smile. But in my head, my reactions were actually like Ris Low like that.. KNNBCCB.. HOW DARE YOU STEAL MY HAND SUPPORT?? NEVER DIE BEFORE IS IT??

AND TO YOU!! ANONYMOUS BANGLAH #2!! You don't BANG on the bus window furiously just because you can't GET ONTO THE BUS. And the worst thing of all is.. HOW DARE YOU BANG ON THE WINDOW EXACTLY BEHIND ME. ARE YOU BRAINLESS OR WHAT? THE BUS IS MOVING AWAY FROM THE BUS STOP ALREADY AND YOU STILL DARE TO CHASE THE BUS AND BANG ON THE WINDOW LIKE A MAD MAN. AND YOU MADE ME SO EMBARRASSED AGAIN WHEN EVERYONE LOOKED IN MY DIRECTION AGAIN. GRRRR.

I totalleh smell like a Banglah when i got down from the bus because all around me were BANGLAHS on the bus! I know this may sound a little racist (as if this whole post isn't), but being squeezed by chinese on the bus is totally a different thing. 99.9% of the time, the Banglahs carry an onion/curry/sweaty smell with them and imagine when they kept squeezing on the bus, sometimes their bodies will brush again you or they might touch you here and there and it's just so gross can?!?!

Joab is ending his post here. I am going to EMPHASIZE on the fact again that i am not being a racist here. One of the top 5 locations i want to travel to in the world includes India because of the rich and beautiful culture within the country (i'm trying to focus on India's good points). But the fact that you Banglahs, are now in OUR HOMELAND, makes me wonder why you are not adapting to OUR CULTURE OF COURTESY AND ETIQUETTES?

Whatever. *rolleyes*

"Why am I different from others?
Why then... do you have to be like others?"

The down side to this commercial is that towards the end when the girl is playing the violin, they have to keep making her hair flutter in the air to remind us that this is afterall.. a Pantene commercial. Dots.

I'm counting down to 30 days where my flu and cough will come back and haunt me again. This flu and cough thingy has been haunting me at least once every month and doesn't this totally sounds as if like i'm having a period? -_-

Saturday was crazy, went shopping at Orchard and brought a new top! Did i mention my slippers broke on friday and i had to limp my way all the way from the bus-stop to Royal Sporting House to get a new pair of shoes? It was freaking embarrassing and at that point of time i really want to get a shovel and dig a hole to bury my face inside. But i love my new shoes anyway! :D

Halloween night at Rebel was crazy. Was at Powerhouse at first, but it was too full and we had to change location. Anyway, can anyone tell me what has Flint Stones, Spiderman, Pikachu and Hamtaro got to do with Halloween? I totally LOL when i saw those stupid costumes man! After we changed location from Powerhouse to Helipad.. we went in and realized that the place is totally.. unhappening. That is when we decided to set off for Rebel. The scene at Clark Quay was crazy man. It's like CNY crowd at Chinatown, just that the crowd consist of loads of people who dressed up bloodily or in a very gross way. At one point we seriously suspected that the demand for Ketchup went up during this week. LOL!

Time flies man! We're nearing december already! :DDD

Nope guys, Ms Susan Leong isn't pregnant. It'll be scary/hilarious/shocking if she is. I'm talking about my secondary school teacher in my previous post. Ms Susan Leong isn't even married, it'll be totally O.O O.O O.O if she's pregnant. And come to think about it, actually quite scandalous and funneh as well. Heeehehee.

Met up with my S1 Branch guys just now for dinner. The 8 of us chomping down countless 小笼包s and steamboat ingredients. And 7 of us managed to squeeze into jon's car to Holland V. Totally epic, even waved to taxi uncle who was in shocked to see so many people in the car that he had to double check to confirm his doubts. Totally lol. And jon's driving skill = superb. His speed is like drifting all the way from point to point.. he should consider being an F1 driver man.

And i just can't get to sleep.. it's one of those sleepless nights again. =/

The very awkward wave at the start, the weird accent, the amazing outfits she chose to put on, the vulgarities.. everything about this girl is just so S-H-I-N-G-Z. She's in her own league, her own world and she hardly gives a damn if you think she's totally BOOMZ. Mediacrap should give her a talkshow now and it'll totally boost their ratings, seriously.

Anyway, this whole week was very tiring and the highlight of the week was when i met MOMO at YCK Stadium on my way to the gym. The first thing she said to me was, "Omg pohchoon, i couldn't recognise you! You look so tall and slim now. Do you know you actually look very good now??"

-_______________________________________-"
#1 - I'm not.
#2 - Thanks. But you sounded like i looked horrendous in the past.
#3 - I can't believe your son is in the national tennis team!! HAHAHAHA. (ask me why on msn, i'm super evil)

And to end this post with a really exciting piece of news -
Ms leong is PREGNANT!! :DDD I'm so happy for her!!

My mind keeps thinking about the cup which i broke and threw away just now. Apparently being the super careless me, I poured Oolong tea into it and placed it into the freezer. The cup cracked after i took it out 3 hours later.. it was my favourite one which i always used at home and when it just cracked, i didn't even give it a "proper burial", such as putting it into the plastic bag and throw away. Instead, I just dumped the whole cup into the rubbish chute and it just crashed all the way down to the first floor and the sound of it keeps whirling in my head now. Something is wrong with me. T_T

And this is just weird, this isn't the first time i carelessly put it into the freezer and it's just like.. finally after numerous torments and torturous days in the freezer compartment, it finally gave up and cracked. Wth. Something like when you keep hiding from yourself, your true colours will still bound to be shown one day to others. You can hide one moment, but you can't hide forever. Just like how you can't hide from your conscious forever too. And this can be put into other daily context as well, such as if you've endured something for a very long time, your emotions will bound to break one day too.

But i believe i'm thinking too much. Yes, i'm thinking too much. Please slap me awake.

Anyway, i ate so much today. Accompanied grandma and mommy to the temple and it was nice to just appreciate the tradition and culture of the place, although it's darn hot and i'll rather be at home sleeping my ass off. Then at night had fish head curry, chilli crab and other side dishes at Sembawang with my family. So i gave a count and realized i ate at least 5 different kind of animals/seafood today. Great. -_-

And i have off tomorrow too! Whoo. Life can't get any better. :DDD

This post is simply titled 'BOOMZ' because i don't know what to put as the post's title and to simply show my love for Ris Low's originality. I also love the new definition given for the word -

" 'Boomz' defies a standard definition and can be used by all and sundry for every circumstance. The genius of Ris Low is that she has created a word that can mean anything to anyone. All the great words that enter our cultural lexicon have this unmistakable 'every-man' appeal."

Ain't it fucking awesome? :DDD

Anyway, i'm enjoying myself alot in camp. Life has been really fulfilling and busy. When you keep yourself busy and have alot of work to do, time simply flies. And nothing adds more to serving the nation with a bunch of sibei irritating people who kept suanning me and abusing me, which is actually quite fun. Geez, i'm not saying i like to be suanned. But i'm just stating the fact that when people even bother to suan you in a light-hearted way, it means people actually still cares about you. You know they don't really mean it and seriously and it makes camp life so much fun! I just hope that liang kai will stop using his arm power strength and freaking grab my hand and twist it whenever he cannot win me in an argument. T_T

But i'm actually very happy today, because it's Mommy's Birthday! (:


Mommy with her cake!


Making a wish~


Cutting the cake!


My darling Mommy! <333


Mommy super shy!


Epic <33333
I hope to be able to spend the next 10, 20, 30, 40, 50 and even 60 years of birthday with Mommy! I'm not that greedy! 60 years means she'll be 100 years old at least and i'll be awesome if she can spend the rest 60 years of her life living with me! :D I <333 Mommy! I don't care if people are going to call me disgusting and say i'm a useless Mommy's boy, i don't give a damn! You can't possibly find another Mommy who'll sacrifice so much for you quietly. Some parents expect their children to pay them back when they grow old, but Mommy's totally cool. She say she doesn't need me to support her and she'll always survive on her own even if i want to disown her. But i won't do that! Why would i be so stupid to do that?! Mommy >>> any other thing in this entire universe and i won't ever exchange Mommy for anything else in this world. Not like that stupid 9pm show where Felicia Chin sold her Olympic for fucking 20k. Like wth, 20k just for such a cute baby? I'll order 10 totally can. Mediacorp series are just so unrealistic and they need to stop being so lame.

Okay, i digressed. But you get me and i'm just going to say again.. I LOVE MOMMY! :):):)

And to complete this post with more love, i love S1 Branch! We went clubbing together with Captain Wang and we had loads of fun! Drank alot that day but i'm glad i didn't get drunk hehehehe. And i think Green Monster is an awesome drink, you all should try it! Super flaming is the sex man, it totally made min jie high like hell after we zhamed it down! :DDD


The gang in action!


The trio~


With CPT Wang, which i'll refer to as Jessica~


On the dancefloor!


We're just high and mad, lol!


More cam-whoring..


Cheeze!


More crazy moments!


Min jie!


:)


:D


I don't know what li jian and min jie are trying to do?


And a last one, i had no idea what's Jessica doing either.. lols!
Tomorrow's LTA Ernest's birthday and we had alot of fun discussing what to do to him. It involves many explicit contents and will only be shared later if he managed to get out of it alive. Hehehe. :)

Off to bed! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrows
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very,
Mad world, Mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday
May they feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny,
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very
Mad world, Mad world
Mad world, Mad world

Don't you think that the song lyrics simply relate to all of our lives in this world?

The usual cough, flu and sore throat virus has hit me once again. No surprises there. Sighs.

But i was touched by many kind loving gestures. My captain was darn sweet and went out of camp to get panadol flu max for me, then there's yanyan who brought me honey lemon drink when i'm craving for something i can drink but won't hurt my throat. Then mommy cooked porridge and luo han guo drink for me as well. I'm getting better le, hopefully i can fully recover by tomorrow.

Anyway, during these 2 days of MC at home, i actually kept thinking about camp life and felt the urge to go camp and do work. For me to actually think like that, there's only 2 possibilities. One, i've gone cuckoo. Two, i really love my camp.

I think it's more of number 2 bah. So it's true.. when you like doing something, time will pass damn fast. My stay at S1 has only been around 2 months, but these 2 months seemed to just pass by like that so quickly. Whereas my stay at NDU for 4 months seemed to be even longer than 4 months, as i dread looking forward to each day and time seemed to pass so slowly at that point of time.

Anyway, i guess i'll stop blogging. I don't really know what i'm typing le. Very drowsy because of the medicine. Until then, tata!